December 21, 2012

Dear Raymond

Today you surprised me with your joy & thoughtfulness. I waited around nervously, tried to occupy myself with other things to pass the time, not really believing you were actually going to show up. And just when I had given up hope, you were here. Funny how that even as I’m writing this letter to you, I’m reminded of that magical ability you seem to have. Showing up when all signs say oblivion.

First, I want to apologize for the state of sadness I was in, because my true feelings were elation & happiness. But on the other hand, I’m glad I didn’t come off like a babbling idiot like I did yesterday. I’ve been training myself for years, to not let myself believe when it comes to you. As wonderful as being with you is, it can also be truly scary.

For whatever reason, friendship or otherwise you took the time and it did not go unnoticed. You took a baby step. You peered in through the doorway and that my friend is bravery in my books. And as weird as it was to see you in my house, it’s a sight I hope I see in the future. Thank you for your kindness. I hope you understand what that means.

xo Sage2012-12-20 18.52.47-1